pain...

i never, in my whole life, thought i could feel so much pain each day. it makes me want to loathe myself for actually feeling and dwelling in this rut. it seems no amount of consoling can even start to make me feel better. my tears are not even enough to express the anguish i am going through. it's so vile that others can cause another strife and suffering. how can i be strong when i am emotionally incapacitated by this?? it's just not fair!