stuck in a moment

what did just happen??... was i mistaken with what i heard? it has seemed that every second expanded into hours. my jaw almost dropped to the floor. i was like "what the?!?!..." for the past few hours, i've been rewinding my short-term memory to that particular moment during the day. on the inside, i've been screaming at myself, so that i could be reminded of the severity of this matter. panic has overwhelmed my inner consciousness! images of inevitable repercussions have continuously been brewing in my mind. oh no! what now?! what should i do about it?! should i keep hush-hush, anyway?

i didn't expect this curve ball to be thrown at me. how could i be so blind and oblivious?