here i am again... lost!

i am still messed up. i never change...

if others are sick of me being this way, i could not agree more. if only, i'd put my own head on the chopping block and be done with it all. i'd stick a knife up my throat and everyone else would be less miserable. if i could make the world a happier place by being not there, then i may have done one good deed, after all, in life. please, i don't need pity...i am not even worth the thought of it.